Archive for January, 2010


Where did I lose you

This one is a puzzle,

Takea  guess at what I am writing about,  I have given the answer and the reason at the end.
Where did i lose you

Born with me, you were my twin brother, my identity
You became bigger and stronger as I grew along
You were a fire which fuelled me all my life
YOu were the one who made me what I am today

All things in the world,I can easily lose and forget
But losing you will break me from inside, cripple my mind
Coz your my heart, the one who shaped my soul
And without you I am nothing more than skin and bones

And I always thought I would defend you with my life
Always thought you would be the last thing i could lose
I can die of pain and die of hunger but always think that
You will be the one with me even in my dying breath

But these days I feel lonely and lost and l
I dont sense that fire which comforted me from inside
I dont feel my blood brother along when I walk and
I take a look back and you are not there anymore

Dont know where I lost you and dont know if Ill find you
And I dont feel good without that familiar feeling
I miss your comfort in these times of depression
Coz you made me proud even in my darkest of hours

Wherever you are, just come out of that closet of yours
Coz I want that high when I am walking, I want it back
I wanna keep my head up and above, just the way it was
So come back brother, I need you now more than ever.


I was beginning to feel that I am nothing more than a compromise

So the song above was written about something I lost to become somebody liked…

But even the compromise didnt work, I only ended up losing something

That I was proud of even at the times I have lost, my Pride


The Happy Song

Keep writing sad songs loverboy

Nothing is gonna change anything

When reality is a bitch, why dont you run away from it

And you did try to fool reality once

Escaped from the familiar path to take the road not taken

But reality had a way of getting back , even in your fantasies….

Isnt it, the happy song …

The Happy Song

Hand in hand, on this lonely stretch of beach
With nobody to watch but for sweet mother nature
We walk miles, miles without a word spoken
And my eyes come looking for yours every second

The world stays silent as our hearts speak
Speak in unison about this wonderful life
While the moon watches from the sky above
Pouring its milky light on this loving couple

And I keep looking below and keep wishing, If I could
Be one those waves caressing your beautiful feet
Only to remember that the waves have only tonight
While I have you for the rest of my life

With each other for comfort on this cold night
We keep walking, walking our way to heaven
As the birds keep singing about the two of us
An Ode to this love , to this never ending love

And as the dawn breaks across the silver sky
My eyes open to see the first ray of the golden sun
To enjoy this moment of heavenly beauty together
My hands come searching for yours

and dont find it

And I look around only to find myself all alone
With the Pen in my hand and notebook in front
Sitting in my chair with the night lamp on
Alone in this house with only your memories for company

May be my eyes were too tired of crying last night
And when my eyes went to sleep, my heart escaped
To run free on paper with nobody to watch for
And write a dream on paper about you and me together

Since the only thing I knew was to cry on this notebook
With words pouring out in torrents from my bleeding heart
I went on writing more of these sad songs about our lost life
And kept wishing If you could give me a chance for a happy song

And knew this wish for a happy song will never be fulfilled
As long this needle of reality keeps pricking at me
Reminding me that I can never write a happy song without you
And so my heart fooled my mind just this one time

To write a Happy song

To write about a dream thats not mine

And this will be my happy song

My only happy song…



Duel With God

Who to blame when you have blamed everybody else,

Who to blame when you have lost the last thing in your possession,

Your Faith,
Duel with God

Guess you are out there, somewhere
Hidden in the clouds beyond our reach
Glorified and dignified , Oh so great
A Glorified and Dignified Coward

Afraid to come out in public, afraid of who
Afraid of your own creations, afraid of your own neglections

Guess you are out there, somewhere
If you are what you are, Grant me
One Wish, A duel, you and me , till death
A Duel i wont win, But will make you pay

Let the stars be the spectators
We will be the gladiators, try it atleast once
You may end up liking it
A fight to death, fight to my death yeah

Afraid to come out and fight
Afraid of your own creations, afraid of your own defeat

People say you test good people
But always watch for them, Yes
You have watched for me
But you have also failed me, failed me with my life

Gone are days when I hoped for miracles
Gone are the days when I needed good things from you
All I need now is some rest and some peace
Grant me my wish, my death

Afraid to grant my wish
Afraid of losing your little play thing, who will entertain you then

Havent lost the hope for the final fight
The day of Armageddon, You and Me
A fight to death, death for me
Create a new me afterwards, You will like it



This one is a fav among the few I have written… And its about Hope

Who says Hope is a good thing,

Maybe it is, but every second spent hoping

Can prevent you from moving on, thats all

So, here is the song in video format


And here comes the text version


Tears can stay back and get trapped inside my eyes
My Wishes can become unheard echoes inside my mind
All the dreams about you can haunt me forever in my sleep
And my life may drain out just by bleeding love

All my Emotions can be orphans searching for love
My eyes always waiting for the never rising sunshine
All these poems of mine may become muted monologues
And this love may take its final sleep buried in my heart

Every second without you I may regret till eternity
Every step I take, I may miss you walking beside me
Every time I fall, I may wait for your helping hands
And every time I open my eyes, I may search for you

I might lay my head on this bed of thorns everynight
And wake up in the morning just to walk on them again
And do this everyday and never get tired of this pain
But nothing in the world is worser than this Hope of mine

This glitter of light that magnifies the darkess outside
Gives a short lived comfort which can only make me numb when gone
Like a dying candle burning bright before going down, Hope
Flares my fiery spirits only to douse them with cold water

Gives me all the reasons to keep hoping till eternity
Only waiting in the end to crush them all to dust
Like a firefly who likes the candle which takes its life
I keep coming back to where it all started again

Hoping to do this all one last time before I let go
Only that I can never stop doing this till I get you
And I take one more step towards the slow death that awaits
Simply because I am willing and dont have anything better

But for this hope nothing is gonna keep me alive
I might never see the dawn but I wont stop now
I might fight a losing battle against your choices
But this Hope will still keep you close to my heart

And I will go on…

I will go on…

I cant let this Hope die…

I wont let my Hope die…


Dark Angel – Somebody I saw in my office party :)

Here is my tribute to a sexy lady I saw the other day,

I have always seen her in office and found her hot but on this particular day

She was just awesome…


Bury the Faith

Donno how many times I’ve been on the edge,

Lost track of the times I have trusted and failed

So just one another instance where there was nobody to blame but my faith…

Bury the faith

Bring in the shovels
Dig out the earth
perform the last rites
For a grave I will dig
For my faith
Where hope dies along with my faith

No more unanswered prayers
No more emptybeliefs
No more one sided talking
For its been decided
That my faith
Deserves a quick death and nothing more

All these years I have
Banged my head against
A wall that will never budge
Earning nothing but wounds
So it stops now
Atleast my bleeding will stop now

In a world so selfish
I stood my ground
With you for company
Trusting you for deliverance
And all you could do was to
Turn your back on me just like your world

So, No more trust
No more hope
No more faith
For you are nothing
But a fool’s Fantasy
Nothing more than a detailed Day dream

I am on my own now
Never will I come to you
Enough with this life
Done with disappointments
So I dig this grave
Where I will bury this faith of mine

Where hope dies along with my faith……..


Break out – A Tribute to No Rain by Blind Melon

Donno how many times I had felt about being trapped inside this box,

Created by none other than me and all of my well wishers out there,

Had always wanted to live life without any inhibitions, take joy in the smallest of pleasures

A minute at a time and never thinking about the spent minute and the minute i am gonna spend

Couldnt stop but write a tribute to a song which always appeals to somebody inside who always wants to


Break out

A world, wild and beatiful on our doorstep
While I live within my world of restrictions
But the sights are here, and the smells are there
And I am just waiting for the moment to break out

To Fly away and sail among the clouds
Break myself away from these shackles of life
Like a bird lighter than its own feather
I wanna fly higher and lighter, away from all this

Donno why am I still waiting, like always
Miss pretty world is not gonna run to me
So lemme run to her, the world wild and free
With open hands, with an open mind

And embrace her with all the joy in the world
Arms stretched , I am gonna run towards her
Run and Run till there is nothing left in my miind
Nothing but Joy and freedom and nothing more

And I keep running,running towards my destiny
A destiny written by god and rewritten by me
A will of God broken by me by just running 
By running away from the path he chose for me

Finally, the sights are here, the sounds are heard
And the sweet smells of the world wild and free
That everlasting sweetness that can cure my soul,
Will continue to linger till the time I die, till my memories die

If there was one heaven I am already there
Broken from my old life, this is a new beginning
The beginning to the end of my old life
A brave new world , wild and free and Calling

And I am still running, only this time
The world is running along with me , hands together
We will run and run like two lovers in passion
We will find new meanings to our own lifes, in each others company

January 2010